I'm just not very excited about Christmas this year. There has been too much going on in my life that has been negative the last couple months that it's hard to get away from that.

One of the negatives just happened this week. Monday night I had a meeting and came home late. When I walked in the living room, there on the barrel was a camera. I picked it up; it looked an awful lot like the one that I had misplaced about a month ago. I have been racking my brain trying to find what happened to this camera. I don’t remember misplacing it or leaving it somewhere and it’s awful hard for it to just fall out of my purse with the spot that I always put it in, so I was getting very frustrated and with Christmas coming felt I needed a camera and was seriously tempted to go buy another one. Well, the camera is there on the barrel and it’s dead. So dead that the lens is still retracted. Okay, well since it’s mine, I have the battery charger. I took it all to work yesterday and charged the battery so that I could at least put the lens back in. Well I turn it on and start flipping through the pictures and lo and behold there’s pictures of my 13-year-old sister and some of her friends at school. My blood pressure is rising with every picture that I view. The little bitch stole my camera out of my purse and took it to school and has had it for over a month. I went out of town and wanted to take my camera but couldn’t find it when she had it all this time. Thanksgiving was just a couple weeks ago. I wanted to take some pictures of the family together and actually getting along, but alas, I couldn’t find my camera. After looking at the pictures, I realize that my sister had it during thanksgiving. She had a friend stay over and they played dress-up. There are pictures of that in there. Sneaky little bitch. There are pictures of friends at school and on the bus.

I called my mom and asked if she knew that krys had my camera. She said “yeah, but you weren’t home last night to talk to”. I told her that she took it OUT of my purse. It wasn’t just lying around somewhere for her to pick up. There are about 50 or so pictures of her and friends from school on there. “she told us you gave her permission” uh, NOT EVEN!!! “yeah, I’m busy we’ll talk about this tonight”. Humph. Yeah right. I called her about 9am yesterday and steamed all day long about this. I am so frustrated with my sister I don’t see any way out of the red haze right now. I got home last night and didn’t talk to her. We went out to dinner and I didn’t talk to her. We got home and I pulled my camera out to go show mom some of the pictures. She said, “yeah, I know there’s a bunch of pictures in there” I asked if she had seen them. She said no. I told her that she had it during thanksgiving. My mom commented that she had some balls to do something like that, but she didn’t call krys in there to confront her about it or anything. So I went into her room figuring that if she had the camera she also had the case that went with it. She got defensive when I asked about it. I wasn’t nice either. She said, “I don’t know, I don’t have it.” She then turned around and pulled it out of her dresser drawer where it was hiding under some movie cases. Like I said before, little bitch. She then tells me that I told her it was okay for her to take it. I told her (loud enough for mom to hear) “you think I’m gonna let you take a $200 camera to school when you lose a library book?! I don’t’ think so!!!” She goes into mom’s room and instead of getting a lashing like I would have gotten I had I done something minute in comparison, she gets scolded. They scolded her. Told her that people didn't like people that steal and that's what she did. She stole from me. Blah, blah, blah. She was told that if she gets caught in a lie one more time then she "will be grounded until lord knows when" (whatever) she's been caught before and they still haven't done anything to her. I'm so tempted to keep what i got her for Christmas. She doesn't deserve anything after the shit she's pulled on me this year.

So this is just a little bit of my frustration this year and my lack of excitement stems mainly from my little sister and putting up with her and her care-not and holier-than-thou attitude.

On another note, I am excited to see how Mikhai will act this year. Ms. Tee said that this year he should be excited about the actual presents and not just the boxes or wrapping paper. Now that I have my camera back, I can take some pictures. :o)

Update on the previous post. Mikhai is doing MUCH better at not peeing in my bed or his. Although I’m dealing with temper tantrums lately. I just hope it’s a phase and he’ll grow out of it, but to hear my mom tell it, he only does that to me. “he doesn’t act like that when you’re not around, which is all the time.” I wasn’t around because I’m working three friggin jobs! Moving out still hasn’t happened. My plan is to go this weekend and see some places by my sister, but we’ll see if that’s actually what I get to do.