You would think that my son had been practicing for La’bares strip club or the Chippendales with the way he was dancing on the coffee table Monday night. He was standing on the table shaking his arms and bottom and just jamming. Then, he gets down on his hands and knees and it looks like he’s humping the table!!!!! I have NO clue where that came from. He sure as hell hasn’t seen me do anything like that! Lol. My mom saw that and looked at me and said, “Have you ever been to La’bares?!” uh, no. “That’s what they do! They get on the floor and do THAT!” I had no response other than to just bust out laughing. It was just so hilarious to see this coming from this little toddler.

mikhai and i had a wonderful weekend together.

friday my little sis rode around with us since mom and dad went out. we went to target and i got mikhai these t-shirts with great sayings on them. one says "my grandma and grandpa don't spoil me, they are just very accommodating". the next one says "i do all my own stunts". and finally, i told dad mikhai has to wear this when he takes him to hooters, "chick magnet". after target, we had dinner and then went to wal-mart. i spent over $100 and only walked out of the store with 3 items. that's kinda wrong if you ask me! lol. but one of the items i bought was a fan for our room so that we can actually sleep in there. the other item was a toddler bed. yup, mikhai is graduating from the crib. (not that he ever wanted to be in there in the first place....)

the bed didn’t get put together until Saturday cuz I still had not cleaned out the room enough to take the crib apart, but we got up bright and early (bleh) and started cleaning. Or rather, I started cleaning and Mikhai started getting into things. I got the room cleaned really good considering the time and the space I have to work with. We took a break to go downstairs for a little while and Mikhai and I fell asleep on the couch. Mom, dad and krys left to go somewhere (I think it was dee dee's, but I don’t know cuz I wasn’t told, let alone invited) but not ten minutes after they left grandpa M was calling. I tried to ignore it, thinking maybe he’ll leave a message, but NO. he calls not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES!!! My son actually answered the phone on the third ring so I had to talk. I was really wanting to go to sleep. (After last week, I have had absolutely no energy. It’s all I can do to stay awake at my desk for more than ten minutes.) anyway, back to our weekend. I got the crib taken apart and the toddler bed put together. With the wonderful help of my son. He had a screwdriver and was trying to fit it in all the holes he could find. Then he stole some of the screws and was trying to put those in the holes too. Right concept, wrong time…lol. Saturday night he slept in his bed pretty well. He woke up in the middle of the night, but that’s normal for him.

Sunday we did a little more cleaning, but not much. I’m going to work on the room a little more each day this week. Hopefully it will start to look like a real room soon. :o) yesterday morning we were in the room at about the time that Mikhai usually gets tired and needs to take a nap. I knew he was getting tired so I was about to stop what I was doing and take him downstairs when he crawled in his bed and lay down. After I rubbed his head for a few minutes, he passed out. So he knows the bed is his and what it is for, we just have to convince him that he needs to sleep in it at night too. Cuz last night he did not want to be in the bed. He wanted to be with me. Which is understandable because almost every night of his life so far, he has fallen asleep in my arms.

My mother tried to tell me this morning that I can’t keep letting him sleep with me. I need to keep putting him in bed. If it takes all night and you’re up all night, then that’s what you need to do. Okay, whatever mom. I’ll do that when I have a weekend to try it on. I’m not doing it now.

OH! yesterday evening we went to dee dee's before we went to dinner and she got to see exactly how much my son can do in the space of a few minutes. he was like a little tornado running through her house. he would try to get into something and she would tell him no, so he would turn around and get into something else. i think her exact comment was "good God, you really do get into everything!" yeah, pretty much. i can put mikhai in the living room and sit down and by the time i get my feet up, he has already taken off and decided that he has other things to investigate.

the season is over at LSP!!! WOOHOO!!!!

now i can actually spend a whole day with my son with NO appointments or time limits. i'm so excited. (i won't know what to do with myself without a time limit hanging over my head)

well, things are a little better today. it's still hotter than hell in the house, but mikhai and i have been sleeping downstairs. the couch is oh so NOT comfortable and i wind up more tired after sleeping on it, but mikhai has been sleeping better so i'm dealing.

this is the last weekend for LSP. WOOHOO! i like working there and the people are great to work with, but i need a vacation. cuz i'm going

mikhai has been giving kisses like crazy and i'm eating them up. cuz i know there will be a point in his life that he will hate to give me kisses. now he thinks it's fun and i'm not gonna do anything to change his mind. :o)

i have been seriously contemplating getting mikhai a toddler bed. he does NOT like to penned in and refuses to get in the crib if he is awake. i think if he got to act like a big boy and do what everyone else in the house does, he would actually sleep in it. (then i could get a little bit more space in our room too....or it would feel like more space)

let's see, there has been quite a bit going on, but i've just not felt like posting anything. i don't even feel like it today, but if i don't do it now, i won't remember what i was wanting to put in here.

last tuesday evening mikhai and i went to a party at the LSP bosses house. it was the annual end of season bash with swimming, food and alcohol. mikhai and i enjoyed the food and swimming, but since i just got my nice new car, i'm not gonna do anything to mess it up! i have made several mentions of the fact that mikhai thinks that he is older than he really is. well he tried to prove his thought in the pool. he REALLY wanted to be in the pool by himself. every time that i would try to take him in the middle so that he could play, he would try to get away from me and swim by himself. i even tried to put floaties on him at one point so that he could swim by himself and he yelled at me. he saw everyone else in the pool swimming without them and thought that he could do it that way also. (i lost count of how many times that boy went under the water....lol) now that the season is almost over, i'm thinking about looking into putting him in some swim lessons....we'll see though.
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wednesday night was the start of our latest adventure. nothing much happened except for the fact that he didn't sleep very well. he tossed and turned on me all night long and wouldn't let me put him in bed. everything seemed okay thursday until sometime in the middle of the night. he just started screaming. and would not stop. i know he cried/screamed for at least two hours, but it was probably longer than that cuz i wasn't coherent when he first started. i have no clue what his deal was. i tried cuddling him, i tried music, i tried to walk with him, i tried milk....nothing worked. finally, so that i could at least get some sleep, i took him in to my mom to see if she could do anything for him (since she didn't have to work on friday, i was gonna let HER stay up all night with him.) i gave him to her and he calmed down and eventually went to sleep she said. okay fine.

friday ms. tee said that he seemed fine, but just acted really tired. i thought maybe it was just a fluke. yeah right, no such luck. almost as soon as i had gotten home from work friday and night and gotten good and asleep, he starts again. I so cannot figure out what’s wrong. I tried to deal with him again and when I couldn’t take it any more I took him in to my mom again. She has yelled at me and told me that when I cannot handle him anymore, I need to ask for help. Well, I did. I was to the point where I was getting really upset about how he was acting. He didn’t want anything to do with me. My own son and I can’t do anything to help him, or rather, he doesn’t want me to help him. I took him into my mom and he lay on her chest calm as can be. Do you know how much that hurt?! I saw that and went into my room and just bawled. I got really upset by that. Well not long after I took him to my mom, she comes back in and starts telling me that she thinks it’s his throat cuz he’s not messing with his ears. Then she sees that I have been crying and gets onto me about it. “you need to calm down and stop crying. He gets even more upset when you cry like that. It’s not going to help matters any with you acting like this.” (HUH?! I brought him to her BEFORE I got this way!) so I try and start to calm down….not something that you can just turn on and off, but I’m trying….. she gives him to me and demands (yes, demands) that I get up and try to walk the floor with him. I only get to do this for about 5 minutes (because I can’t do it right) when she demands that I give him back to her. (this is where it gets fun.) okay, my son is not happy at all right now. He’s screaming and flailing and arching his back and it’s a struggle to hold on to him. So I go to hand him to her and he arches and I wind up dropping him into her arms. She goes off on my ass at this point. “DO NOT THROW YOUR SON!” huh?! I didn’t! “YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN. YOU DON’T EVER THROW YOUR SON!” what?! I didn’t! I was trying to hand him to you! (my arguments never penetrate her thick fucking skull so I don’t know why I even try to defend myself, but I do) she says something else I’m sure when I told her not to yell at me (I tend to say this a lot) “I’LL YELL AT YOU ALL I WANT. DON’T EVER THROW YOUR SON” oh jesus Christ! “YEAH JESUS CHRIST! CALM DOWN” (what-fucking-ever…..how the hell does she expect me to calm down when she treats me like this?) so, since I’m supposed to be “calming down” I don’t say anything else and she eventually leaves and keeps my son the rest of the night.

The next morning she acted like the episode in the middle of the night never happened. I called his doctor to get her opinion on what was happening. She asked if he had a fever, no. has he been pulling at his ears, no. (I know the signs of an ear infection….he’s had a few already) after a few more minutes of conversation, she was as stumped as I was. She told me that if he had a repeat performance Saturday night that I was to call her early on Sunday and we would meet for her to look at his ears and throat. Well Saturday night we actually wound up sleeping downstairs in the living room because that’s where he passed out and it was cooler downstairs than it was upstairs. Saturday night he slept ALL NIGHT LONG. I didn’t sleep the greatest because I was on the couch, but I’ll take that over nothing.

Yesterday was fun also. I walk in the door and both mom and dad comment that I’m finally home and that I can have my son. He has been a pain in the ass. “okay, so what’s he been doing?” being a pain in the ass. Neither one would tell me much more than that. (just a little note, it is a friggin furnace in the house. Apparently the A/C is not working properly but no one has decided to do anything about it) my mom tells me that he has been clammy. That’s probably because it’s so hot in the house…..maybe…..but I don’t know what I’m talking about so don’t take my word for it. I got home before everyone else and went upstairs to change and our room felt just like my car did after it sat in the heat for six hours. That’s mine and my son’s BEDROOM. I can understand the garage feeling like that, but not the house. I guess someone called bubba to have him come over and look at the A/C. I have not clue what he did, if he did anything. I couldn’t tell much of a difference. My son and I slept in the living room again last night. When I told my mom we were going to, she said that I better set an alarm or something because she wasn’t going to come downstairs and wake my ass up. What a bitch, eh? That’s mom for ya. So my son slept good, but I slept like crap for fear that I wouldn’t wake up in time to get ready for work.

Now we are at today…..and I feel like crap. The past several days of not sleeping all night and/or sleeping on the couch are starting to take their toll on me. I have got a headache and being at work with all the bright lights and noises is killing me. Ugh. I just wanna go home and sleep, but dad and krys are home so I don’t see that happening. And besides, by the time I got home and actually got to sleep, I would only get about two hours of sleep. :o( so I am really counting the hours until I can leave here and get my son.